Of Roses Overdose and Midnight Ramble (it's that time of the semester again!)

 Finally got around to finishing her! The original was supposed to be more 'blue' and simpler...but well, this will do for now! This is also my first digital painting.

Anyways.

Poisonous thoughts running through me at the moment,

and not making me feel very pretty, both inside and outside :/




(If only one could talk everything out. Or that one could come down from their high horse. And stop comparing yourself to make yourself feel better. OR put you down in front of other people/your friends, which fyi, is the worse thing I think you could do to a close friends. Seriously kids, don't be an adult like this one. Or the fact that just because you couldn't choose do be/do in your life, overwhelm me with jargons and make me feel insecure with my own choices. Agh but I need to stop worrying about other people/I need to refrain myself from taking it out on other people. Get your shit together Carol!!)

...Haha, well, that's my Gemini in me coming out full force ;) Oh the forever contradicting thoughts and actions~

But seriously. 

Maybe I'm little bit on the edge since I have a design assignment due on Thursday, and I...kinda don't know what to do. I think I've lost confidence in design for a bit. But I need to do well, not just to prove to others but more so to prove to myself that I can be okay with architectural designing. (Please, please let the design me what I'm imagining in my head!!)


ps. 3D modelling software's are mega hard :( 

IncStamp presents: Remix! - Study of 'Amanogawa'

So IncStamp had another exhibition! (Yes, already passed the opening night,) to be 100% honest, I didnt really stick with the theme too much, more like I did a rendition/my own interpretation/just a litttle bit modernized version of a famous painting...BEEECause, I honestly could not think of ANYTHing!! And man, when I'm busy, Im super busy to the point that I hardly got any decent amount of sleep for the past 3 weeks... man I'm going to age horribly :/ 

But anyways, lets start chronologically!

I got inspired to do this particular piece by Alphonse Mucha's 'Study of the Moon and the Stars' (you know how much I like glowing shizz and space/stars. Way too much.)

My 'remixed' version is of 'Amanogawa', a Japanese word for Milky Way (and also Prunus serrulata - Japanese Cherry. The flowers looks like pompoms, so cute :3 But yeah, but the colour palatte decided after seeing these flowers/trees)
...more description to come!

Bit of WIPs :) This is actually pretty interesting since the watercolour stage and digital stage...is COMPleeetely different. I need to skill it up in watercolouring before I could even think of doing something like I did with the digital version!

 The set up, but I only ended up using the palettes and the pencils

 Inking away,

 Forgot how to watercolour!!! It was mega hard. I really need to practice this again!!

 I was planning on making it simple, but then this happened so I ended up adding too much blue after this.

The line art was actually okay, very light and fluffy. But I think the look it has now goes more with the theme (ahaha or atleast thats my excuse :P)

Before, and after a little bit of stardust.

Lied, a LOT of stardust. Photoshop stardust.

Moustache Magazine Feature+Facebook Page

Just something I forgot, I got interviewed by these guys few weeks ago, 

Check it out here Moustache Magazine Feature! (I sound like a little air-head high on sugar, baaahtwhatevaaa)

I honestly should have read the 'about me' section of my own blog before answering any of the questions... :L My memory's apoling when Im under pressure or when I'm on the go/no proper sleep for couple of days.


Also, I got maself a Facebook page! (why? Because I dont have a proper place to refer people to when they ask for a site...I cant give them the blog link, or redbubble...so facebook it is :/)

The Facebook Page! Come say hi x)

I dont think I need a website yet anyways. What I do need is to draw some more stuff up though, just for fun/me :) Or go on another holiday/dissapear off into somewhere, that would be sweet.

*Off to the magic land!*

I lied. I know what I need to do -asides from the critical review and the archi assignment, I need to draw something featuring Sri lanka. I've been meaning to do this forever and ever, but haven't been able to get around it yet. I'm may not seem very patriotic to the native Srilankans or the Srilankan born 'foreigners', but I'm do have a lot in me... You cant switch on and off something like this you know >( ...well this is topic is for another day! I have a rant about nationalism/internationalism I need to get it out

RAW Brisbane Presents: Generation

It was amazzzing, it's been a while since going to an 'underground/art' scene...agh how I've missed it! And the fact that everyone who bought a ticket came *cue tear* that's pretty special too (felt too much love, seriously xx)

Here are few snaps from the night - None of them are mine at all btw, I forgot to take the camera with me...I know :(

Photo from rcstills.com.au

Photo from RAW Brisbane

And the rest are from Kat♥

♥♥♥

So from this point on, its going to be more of a little reflection rather than a 'thank you' post. I thanked enough damnit. I worke hard by myself too, you know! I literally got no help with anything aaaat all, well except for Dad being a bit of a taxi driver on Friday...(thanks father!) ...(beside the RAW team, I thank you guys wholeheartedly!) 

BUT

anyways,

Few points that I'm still a little confused about - 

1. This is the big one: I'm a little confused on how I should explain the art/style/why I'm creating. 99% of the times, it super personal. And I don't think I'm comfortable with people knowing some of the descriptions to the full extent. For an example, a lady was saying that with this particular drawing, the girl in it seemed peaceful and calm. (But really, it's more like the look of defeated after years and years of longing - I guess you  could say 'peaceful', but only because she's trying to forget)

But do I actually want to explain all that - no.

I hope my pictures speaks for themselves.  I mean, yeah obviously a bit of background information would be helpful, but I'm not going to write one of those poetic (cough-pretentious-cough) artfart descriptions to every single one of the drawings - stuff thaaat. 

I'm no 'artist', and I'm not going to be pretend to be one either.

Let's just live by that for a bit,

But then I'm afraid that the things I do might seem like it has no purpose or meaning behind it. Middle ground Bima, middle ground!

2. Am I supposed to intervene when people are intently looking at the artworks!? Like, I would have loved to chat with more people about what aspects of the stuff they liked and so on... but I felt like a little creeper standing behind the onlookers half the time. 

Haha, but pretty sure many people didn't realise that I was the artist so it was fun listening to some of the comments. But damn, I thought being a design/architecture student prepared me for the harsh criticisms...but I guess you'll never get used to the nasty ones. Ooh but I left a message note for the viewers to write messages and contacts on; probably the smartest thing I did all night! It's filled with soo much love and kindness - going to be looking through it whenever I feel useless and shit.

3. ...

I think those two were the only points. 

Actually, about what I want to do from now on. 

Something I actually need to sit down and think about properly. But after I finish my assignments though, got 2 of it due on Thursday. Back to the reality I guess!