Thursday, June 13, 2013

Lost in Tranquility



The Blog now has a new title!


Lost in Tranquility


Yeaheah. Because I really am right now. Well not really. Mix of wishful thinking and what I am right now. (Which makes no sense really.)

I really need to get hold of my bearings, but the me being who I am...I don't think I'll feel 100% comfortable until I accomplish my 'next' tick box in my forever long to-do-list. And because this is me we're talking about, that's going to take fooooreva :P

Well, I guess that's a good and a bad thing right? Forever exploring.


(:


Anyways, I've got something new! Inspired by my friend Bernadine's little poem. I love the little scribble so much, so much imagery!

Finis 

"It is ultimately

How the world ends

Not in fear
Nor calamity

But quiet in its stillness
And unremarkable in its impact.

Thus the world ends

For very Small,
Insignificant

Man."

- Bernadine Yong




She doesn't really agree with the interpretation, but this is my version. I know she wanted it to be more 'apocalyptic' feel to the picture, but I was in a good mood when I drew this. And just because something's crashing around you/finishing, doesn't mean it has to be horrible right? The part of you will stay with that memory, and a little part of you will rendition and grow into the new 'you'. 

She also wrote couple more different ones which she thought would be more suited for this. I agree, aand disagree...I mean, I think I just like the original poem too much that I'm going to be stubborn on any other ones P: Here's one of them!

They say –
If wishes were fishes
We'd cast nets out to sea

A plentiful harvest of 
Hopes and dreams

(not)

ethereal -- 
gossamer-light
they slip through my fingers

They say 
If wishes were fishes
there is a special one for you
and me.

(liars).

I do like this, except for the last bit only because I'm not really talking about lovers. If only I was eloquent enough to finish off that passage! So I moved it around, what do you guys think of this one?

ethereal -- 
gossamer-light
they slip through my fingers.

They say –
If wishes were fishes
We'd cast nets out to sea

A plentiful harvest of 
Hopes and dreams

(not)


Friday, June 7, 2013

Of Roses Overdose and Midnight Ramble (it's that time of the semester again!)




 Finally got around to finishing her! The original was supposed to be more 'blue' and simpler...but well, this will do for now! This is also my first digital painting.

Anyways.



Poisonous thoughts running through me at the moment,

and not making me feel very pretty, both inside and outside :/





(If only one could talk everything out. Or that one could come down from their high horse. And stop comparing yourself to make yourself feel better. OR put you down in front of other people/your friends, which fyi, is the worse thing I think you could do to a close friends. Seriously kids, don't be an adult like this one. Or the fact that just because you couldn't choose do be/do in your life, overwhelm me with jargons and make me feel insecure with my own choices. Agh but I need to stop worrying about other people/I need to refrain myself from taking it out on other people. Get your shit together Carol!!)


...Haha, well, that's my Gemini in me coming out full force ;) Oh the forever contradicting thoughts and actions~





But seriously. 


Maybe I'm little bit on the edge since I have a design assignment due on Thursday, and I...kinda don't know what to do. I think I've lost confidence in design for a bit. But I need to do well, not just to prove to others but more so to prove to myself that I can be okay with architectural designing. (Please, please let the design me what I'm imagining in my head!!)



ps. 3D modelling software's are mega hard :(